Gifts...

Sunday morning I was laying in bed with Miley on one side of me and Emma on the other, between Jason and I. Miley's cradle is next to my bed, and she now sleeps in her carseat, in the cradle (acid reflux). Emma has her own bed in her room, but she has now gotten in the habit of visiting our bedroom in the middle of the night. She does a good job of going to bed on her own, but if she wakes up at night, she'll come climb in bed with Jason and I. (Any advice on correcting this would be appreicated!) So anyway, we were all laying in bed together and I was the only one awake. I had just fed Miley and put her back to bed and I was trying to go back to sleep myself. I was laying there, just looking at Emma and I thought to myself, "I just can't believe that God has entrusted me with such a beautiful baby." I know she isn't a baby anymore, but really, she'll always be my baby no matter how old she gets. Then today I was holding Miley after I fed her and we were talking back and forth (she's totally in to cooing and grunting at this point), and I thought, "God is so incredible that He can take a few cells and shape them into such beauty." It's amazing that God allows us to give birth to and raise our children. He could've picked any other way for people to be "born" into our world. He couldv'e just zapped humans into existence every few days, or some other wierd way that would seem "normal" if that's all we knew. Instead, he chooses to let us be a part of the whole experience. Maybe I'm a little emotional today or some other strange hormonal thing, or it may be the fact that I'm looking at the end of my maternity leave from school and it's almost time to leave my girls every day, but I just had an overwhelming sense of thankfulness for my babies today.

God, thank you so much for my girls. I never knew that love for another human being could be so deep and full until I became a mother. I love them more than words can express and I thank you so much for entrusting them to me. I pray that they will both grow up with a total reckless abandon when it comes to serving you. Help them realize that Your dreams for them are bigger than any dreams they could dream up on their own. Draw them both to You so that they learn to love You and serve You. Help Jason and I teach them how to love You and show them what it means to follow You. I love You.